God answered me, literally

Don't be suprised when God answers you vocally.
Yes, it happened to me today.

I've been struggling with new environment for a month. Stress level was higher than expected and this caused many sleepless nights. As a results, I was not only brain tired but emotionally weary, too. I was struggling and was asking myself repeatedly whether I should continue with this new job.

I was getting only 3 to 4 hours of sleep each day. Each morning, I'll be awake around 3am and will be trying to fall asleep again without success. After weeks of similar sleepless nights, the anxiety level is high when you look at the clock and realized you had just sleep for less than 4 hours and you need to be in tip top condition to perform at work in the morning. I was forced to resort to sleeping pills but those didn't help either as I still ended up awake, though groggy, after 4 hours.

I had nowhere to turn except to God, seeking His mercy, grace and basically, I was crying out.

And today, God spoke to me through a speaker during our luncheon fellowship. He said God did not promise there will not be turmoil in our lives. He just promised He'll be there for us. God placed me here because He has plans for me. I knew that two months ago but I guess I lost sight of it in my struggle with the new work environment. He said many more but I can't remember them. I can just recall the strong conviction I experienced during the fellowship. I immediately felt calmed. I still don't know why I am here at this particular workplace but God alone knows.

So, here I am, writing this down as a testimony that God answers, sometimes literally. God is good. God is great. Jehovah shalom.